The other night in the car you said that, while you don’t necessarily deny the existence of God, in order to believe to the point of commitment, you’re going to need some kind of undeniable sign. That you couldn’t take secondhand testimony. You need proof. I get it—I do. We all wish we had a burning bush.
I shared with you that I finally came to the conclusion a few years ago that I was grateful God never had to get my attention in some profound way. That I could be okay with other people’s testimony, if for no other reason than others’ testimony often involves seeing God in action through pain or tragedy as the wakeup call.
Darling son, I pray you get what you need, in whatever way you need it, so you may develop a relationship with the amazing God who created us. I pray it doesn’t hurt you or require a sacrifice you’ll wish you hadn’t had to make. I pray that I may show you His love and His grace and His interest in you through my own life and service and example. I pray your father will join me in that.
In the meantime, keep seeking Him, my love. Keep looking for that evidence. I promise you if you seek it you will find it. In fact, He has promised that to us all.
“But if from there you seek the Lord your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul.”
“…for the Lord searches every heart and understands every motive behind the thoughts. If you seek him, he will be found by you…”
1 Chronicles 28:9b
“’The Lord is with you when you are with him. If you seek him, he will be found by you, but if you forsake him, he will forsake you.’ … They sought God eagerly, and he was found by them. So the Lord gave them rest on every side”
2 Chronicles 15:2, 15
“The Lord looks down from heaven on the sons of men to see if there are any who understand, any who seek God.”
“’You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,’ declares the Lord…”
“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.”
Matthew 7:7-8; Luke 11:9-10